I read my previous entry here and it made me smile that it took me awhile before I returned here. I use to blog here then they changed their policy leaving us free bloggers homeless (haha..too much drama).

recap:

1. I got engaged to my bf for four years. He is an ofw for 2 years now in Kuwait.
   
2. I got married to him that same month. It was a civil wedding due to time constraints. I know it doesn't sound grand and we all, girls dreamed of our wedding since we are, err, young.
   
3. We've been so many places locally during that time we were together. We did Tagaytay, Baguio, Bora, and Virac.
   
4. After struggling for almost four months, for our marriage license and my visa, we are now going to be together til, err, december, or Feb next year. I've stretched it. Im lucky I can still go back after that long vacation. 

 He's coming back for a vacation next week (oh diba agad agad! He can't be away from me for a long time coz Im.. well let just say I have a cute smile..haha..confidence to the highest level!). I think we are doing Boracay, Iloilo, Palawan, Zambales, and Bangkok.

I just came back from our 4 days vacation and Baguio. I must say that my Tita Li brought a bit of a light in our dull and boring days in that place. Its holy week and what do you expect being in the Summer Capital of this country? people. If there are people there will be trash all over the place and there will definitely TRAFFIC. We've been to Baguio almost like every year. My brother is a PMA-yer, making us the family who attends the home coming, well err, almost every year. He told us it improves on his networking skills, knowing who's who and where.. yaddayadda.. blah blah blah. Hey don't get me wrong. I love my family. I love spending my free time with them. It just sometimes it gets routinary and really boring. Ok going back to the holy week traffic and tita Li, we stayed significantly near the market near session road but never entertained the thought of walking. We would always take our vehicles and rant about the traffic after being stuck in the same street for almost hour and a half. She is like a miracle worker. She thought us how enjoyable walking is and its benefits in our daily lives minus the gas consumption and the air pollution. Im rambling.. well needless to say, I had a wonderful, challenging and almost every night - good night sleep due to the uphill and downhill journey of going around in Baguio.

But then again, we ride taxis almost everytime we think we can't take another step carrying my moms grocery bags full of veggies and fruits..

more random and almost illogical entries in the coming days

Well this is funny. Im announcing to the people that I am getting fat. Food is tastier and probably Im just enjoying too much that I lose myself. This may also be an indication that I have a problem that I dont deal with. Hope not. I eat alot of junk foods. Im crazy over that e-aji snack and coke light. After meals, I usually eat chocolates. There are boxes and boxes of Hawaii Hosts in our room. My brother just got back from the States. Dami niyang uwing pasalubong. Hay kelan kaya ako makakakapag abroad? Sana next year maka alis na me. Kahit mga 3mos lang then balik ulit dito. May uwi din siyang iPod para sa akin. Hehe. I guess Im really lucky. . I get the things I want except for the one.. hehe.. Hay Im putting love life on hold. I dont care anymore kung magiging matandang dalaga ako or magkasakit ako ng mayoma. (*knock on wood*)..  Friends muna tayong lahat. Pahinugin muna natin nung sept lang natapos yung last relationship ko na 4 years. Pero sa totoo lang, dami kong friends ngayon. Nakaka-overwhelm.

Nakita ko nga pala si Bamboo sa libis nung last saturday. Grabe heavenly. I just love it when he dances. Rockista cia, hindi talga siya sumasayaw. Patalon talon. Pasipa sipa. Ganun. Naka 9 na kanta ata sila. Hindi ko naman napansin na ang tagal ko na palang nakatayo kasi pag upo ko tumunog na ung knees ko. Hoy! Pinoy ako! haha.. Syempre gwapo pa din si Ira. And after nun nag Epinema kami. Sobrang daming gimik these last few weeks. Whirlwind grabe talaga!. Nakakalimutan ko na nga ng konti ang work ko. Buti na lang session break ngayon. Hanep din sa timing. It only goes to show na you cant really reach a balance. Pagnatuon ang sarili mo sa isang aspeto ng buhay mo, may magsusuffer talga. Ang gimik at trabaho hindi pwedeng bumalanse. Haha.

Wala naman talagang bago sa akin. Dami ko ng gadgets. Yun lang. Yun ang pinagkakalibangan ko pagnasa bahay ako. So far ubos oras ko dun. Super enjoy naman. Pagnasa labas naman ako usually Libis or Makati.

Nagshift na ko and Im completing my Methods of Research. So officially Masters In Information Technology na ang degree ko pagnatapos ako by next sem, March. ..  Ang bangis magplano noh? hehe. Yung title na Masters lang naman ang habol ko. Para tapos na agad. Sunod abroad na.

I asked my mom yesterday kung anong assessment niya tungkol sa akin. About work and love life. Sabi ng nanay ko para na raw akong hindi na local kung mag isip. Alam niya nag eenjoy ako ngayon sa buhay ko pero sabi niya parang hindi na raw ako mapagtiwala sa tao at the same time, hindi na raw ako nagpapasukob. Im taking it positively. Independent na ko, In the sense na gusto ko pag sarili ko na yung concern, ako ang nasusunod. Noon kasi sunod sunuran ako sa kanila pag aalis kami (family). I-cancel ko lahat ng lakad ko kasi sabi nila kailangan andun ako. Iba na kasi panahon ngayon. Kailangan kong pag laanan ng time ang projects ko. I really feel im older now.

I hope Im maturing. Otherwise.. hehe.. ewan nagpipilit na lang ako

Mabait ako at mahaba ang pasyensya ko sa tao. Pero minsan napapamura talaga ko sa trapik. Lalo na yung mga manong na walang pasintabi sa pagliko at mga sir na ang lihig sumingit. Hay naku game ako sa mga ganyan.Pakulitan pa tayo.

Alam ko hazard prone talaga yang mga billboards pero mga sir at manong, baka pwedeng pagpatay na oras tulad ng madaling araw, hindi rush hour or sa weekend niyo tanggaling yang mga yan. Nakakadagdag kasi kayo sa trapik. Parang hindi na makatarungan at sayang ang gasolina, pera at oras sa trapik. Halos kalahati ng estralla sa guadalupe nakuha nio na nung monday. Kabagalan pa ng mga uzi magdrive. Kung pwede lang naman. Kung kailangan talaga now na, cge lang pero sana bilisan natin ng konti.

Hindi kaya dahil ber na kaya matrapik? Yehey.. magpapasko na.. Gastos na naman yan. Wish list na. Hmm.. buti na lang iisa pa lang inaanak ko.. Si bea, ang laging banat sa akin "ta dada, twenty.. twenty dollars". Hindi ko pa naisip ang mga gusto kong regalong matatanggap sa pasko kasi malamang pantulog, at undergarments  na naman yan, galing sa mga aunts ko. Gusto kong ma-offend pero regalo yun eh. Bawal ang tumatanggi sa gracia. Maganda rin cguro gumawa ng list ng gusto kong iregalo sa iba. cge post ko sa susunod

There are alot of things on my mind:

1. Are the signatures used in the peoples initiative valid? What process and procedures does the SC undertake to countercheck?

2. Budget deliberation is on-going at the Session Halls of the Senate. Is that for 2007? Does that include for the parliament or still for the republic?

3. How can we stop the Koreans in testing the nuke weapon?

4. Was there really a leackage during the Nursing board exams or are the non-board passers just sourgraping?

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Lamo solusyon sa problema? trabaho. Yan ang naiisip ko. Kumikita kana, tumatalino ka pa, at hindi ka pa nakakadagdag sa problema sa mundo. Kahit ano pa yan kayang solusyonan ng trabaho. And it'll definitely make you forget about your love life or the lack of it. Haha.

I will take a much needed long vacation on December. No more work. I'll just chill and relax. I do not where my feet will take me. I'll burn those moolahs. Haha. I was invited last night by my best friend to go out but I was working .. Nagsisi talaga ko. I was thinking of going out the whole time. grrr!

Sabi nung friend ko, bat daw ganun. Bat ko pa raw post yung previous post ko. Sabi ko wala na yun. Matagal na panahon na. Naalala ko lang pero wala namang halaga yon. Kung may naka-interpret nun na may pag asa pa e, wala na talaga yon. Mali siya sa pag iisip ng ganun.

At anong magagawa ko? mahal ko talaga si Bamboo Manalac.

Hey  another emo entry:

I was still up 12am last night. I was looking for materials to put in my prototype for another non-office project, when I saw our (my ex and I) pictures in the bin. I was smiling like crazy (kita gilagid moment). We look so good together and I can see in the picture that we were happy. I think the pics was taken when he was about to leave for work abroad. I remember, we went to their house in Imus. Delivered some important docs, pack up his things and went back to manila for his departure. I think its important for me to acknowledge his contribution in my life. Although (omg! Im crying).. although I know he found a new love in that country and I was left here alone, I still wish him happiness. I wish that all his dreams will come true and may he have the family that he wanted, the house for his family and the kids that are normal and beautiful. Ang bait ko talga, kaya ako tinatanga eh.

I always tell people I've move on. I do believe that. There are just moments that I think of him. The good thing about it is I do not curse him anymore. I just pray that he's okay and I also pray that I find somebody that I can call my own.

PS. Why such title? It's taken from the soundtrack of our very first date movie, A Walk to Remember.

PSS.. Bakit may picture ni Bamboo?? hehe.. Love ko lang talga cia. Rivermaya pa lang siya at mahaba pa ang buhok nia nun. Hindi ako fans ng mga mahahaba ang buhok, mukhang mabaho. Nagkataon namang mejo kal na siya ngayon.. lalo ko tuloy siya nagustuhan. Hindi ko alam pero iba ang dating sa akin ng mga semi-kal. Ang theory ko jan kasi, kung sa kalbo nga guwapo eh, di lalo na kung may buhok. Di ba??But then again.. its Bamboo.. he's always fab!

My sister is going crazy. Her two year old daughter is watching Hi5, a cd copy of popular nick show, almost the whole day. We cant watch any other shows on tv. And its boring us to death. And my sis was asking if there's a way that the cd will suddenly breakdown. Well I told her, I can "accidentally" scratch it.

I think thats it. If we you cant move the system, change strategy. Hit it in different direction. It might work!

Im so mean..

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At dahil nagmaganda ako kahapon, na naka flipflops sa tagaytay, habang naglalakad kami sa damuhan ng mga kapamilya ko.. Kinagat ako ng langgam..Ang malupit jan hah.. ang liit lang nung red ant na yun. Pero ang tindi.. namaga ang toes ko. Ang daliri ay nagmukhang luya. At ang hirap medyasan at hindi ko maisuot ng maayos ang shoes ko kasi sumikip bigla.. hay ang jologs.. Ang kati pa kaya. Hay Lord..Help me!

Yes. People, you have got to stop hurting me. Its probably my fault that I have been so trusting in embarking in a relationship. I don't know with other people, I never get into a relationship because I want to hurt them or leave them broken hearted. But they have got to stop doing that to me. Im the type of person who is honest and loving. Given that Im like that, I expect the same with my partner. But that is not what is happening. I am always left behind. What is wrong with me?!? Foolish.

I didn't totally believe it when they say that the world is evil and man is selfish. The earth is not made on hatred, distrust and chaos. Now, as I see it, its all becoming.